Randomness updates

Long time no blog. School is very busy. Lots of things happened. I didn't got into Investment Club committee. They didn't want me. I knew i aced the interview, but they said that I had too much of commitment, and might not have the time to help them. bullshit. I told them my expertise in projects will surely help them. No avail. And i banked all my hopes onto this, coz' i thought i would have been chosen.

Then came many many projects. Then birthdays and soon, friends flew off one by one to overseas uni. Then, one month later from now, it will be the exams. Followed by ACCA exams.

Two weeks before, or perhaps last week (unable to recall my murky memories), i said something very very hurtful to my close friend so that she could wake up from her lovey-dovey state and break up with that bastard (who dated three of my friends before that, in the span of 2+ months). I reckon there wouldn't be anyone else who would be courageous enough. Apart from making her advertent, she perhaps broke down and cried. I regretted being so frank and preassuming. A good friend, that is, but it sure may lead to a detoriation in our friendship, or perhaps there wasn't friendship anymore.

Then came the many quizzes, I just got back my Financial Management quiz last friday. The prof said the highest in the class was 13/15. And four person got it -- the odds: 4/50. And the mean was 9.8marks. Then, upon tallying my answers, i realised i got 13/15. Jubilant i was, till i realised the only four person who sat beisde me got 15, 14, 14 respectively. The teacher stats were wrong!!!! Actually, in due fact, i copied the person who got 15marks. And i felt strongly for both of the answers, and thus i got both of them wrong. Sometimes, it just pays to avoid bringing in the advanced level stuffs into the picture.

My hall is wasted. Seriously.

I decided to avoid fast food, fried food, at all cost for one month, and beyond. Three weeks had gone past. And i haven't tasted Mcdonald's damned fries.

My thesis is due on 1st nov. I told my mentor in july that i wouldn't have time to work on it after july. She said okay, and approved my final report. And now that im getting ready for the submission, she gave me 20 points for consideration. AND THOSE POINTS OF CONSIDERATION AINT considerations, but a must. And so, I slogged through one night dolling up 10points or more. I'm prepared to finish it by today. Then, mull through my accounting group project due on wednesday. And only only, after that, i can start my revision.

My father is flying to visit some country on the 25th of october. And thus, not celebrating my birthday. 'It's okay', i told him. And he knew it was okay anyway. No pun intended. Note: I think i dated my friend for a dinner on that day, and she didn't know that day was my birthday. Hopefully, she don't, else it would be awkward.

Many people, notwithstanding the fact that they are single, told me to get attached. It is, however, hard due to the natural phenomenon of only 24hrs in a day. I contemplated, albeit my strong sense of reasoning and procrastination capability (perhaps not that of 'capability'), that i should perhaps try to work on it. I'm old, for goodness sake.

Ermm..Zhanni chatted with me yesterday. It's been a long while since she chatted with me. Normally, it would be me to disturb her, asking how's she's doing in school, how's her maths, how's her chem, how's her physics, yada yada. Another way is either one of us has a question and needed help. However, yesterday was an entire different story, she came and talk to me (while im in the midst of preparing for the law presentation the day later), and we chatted about.....ermm...anything, everything, nothing.

She told me she was going to oxford, and how her prelims were so screwed, and the chain of event of how her chem was devoid of one unsympathetical mark -- novus actus was her teacher being called for reservist, and the other teachers were resilient, and 'evil'. Then, i shared with her about nbs, my school, my recent happenings......

I think perhaps, she misses me.

Then, late in the night, while taking a break from studying, I went to her blog and saw this:

"A sudden thought of the possibility of not being able to meet some of the people whom I've met in those innocent years ever again saddens me deeply.
After all, they are the ones who can bring back what I have lost.
They are the ones who can remind me of what I used to have and lost."

I like the way she post, simple and profound. I need her intelligence. I realised I'm really quite stupid.

Just when i came home today, i met my neighbour, i chatted with her. I didn't have the courage to say sorry.