Shit. I'm feeling freaking emo now. My ORD day was yesterday, and apart from feeling dammit-the-huge-liability-is-finally-gone, i was entirely neutral for the whole day. Not happy, not sad, not even reminiscing the two years.
Yet today, for only 3hrs. I felt exceptionally happy and exuberant, and i really really wanted to stay longer. But i couldn't.
I was out with LeongHao and Nicholas for dinner, after which i went to High 5 Recruitment 'Camp Vivant' just to see the new batch of highfivers and my friends.
There were many whom recognised me, many whom was glad that i dropped by to say 'hi', many whom talked to me, many whom introduced me to the new members, and many whom made me felt like home.
Almost all the facilitators are from '06 batch, who were the participants of the recruitment camp which i was involved as camp comm and facil. ( They actually told the rest about me, and how good and caring a facil and campmate i was to them. It was through the new friend, Amanda.)
Managed to chat with almost everyone in the camp, i realised that high5 are always a very friendly bunch of people, and it was always like that. But how come i did not realise this fact till today. I even thought of 'flying aeroplane' and not visiting them.
Before i left, after saying bye to the 'camp committee' (almost every committee members i know), i went to find Wan Rong to say bye to her. Wan Rong is the girl who asked me to drop by camp vivant to see how things are. I think i really like her. She is uber sweet, alluring, kind, considerate, clever, and almost everything!
And not only her, Jiing Shuan, Xinying, Bertilla, Wan Ling, and a few others also possess almost ALL of the qualities of the-kind-of-lady-that-men-like. Be it intelligence, looks, character, class. They had it all. And what's more. My 3hrs talking to them made me feel that they are so mature and unique and can easily put alot of the girls i knew to shame.
Before i left, for god-knows-what reason, i was in the room alone with Pei Ting. ( She was under me during the '06 batch and we sort of 'click' along well) She was sick, not to the extent of a full-blown fever or unstoppable taplike flu, and tired. I chatted with her for awhile. So before i left, or rather when i closed the door behind me, she called out to me.
I stuck my head back in. She was still on bed, her specs still on, hair curled to her side, blanket tucked into her. At first, i thought she was going to make fun of me. Lampoonery of sorts. But she stared at me, almost intently; there was silence for awhile. I said,
"Yes, miss?"
"Nothing. I'm really really REALLY happy to see you today. I wonder when i will see you again." "When can i see you? Please don't forget me."
Okay, whatever you think, i shall make it clear. I known her through the camp two years ago, worked with her for afew projects. Interviewed her. Assessed her character and competency. I daresay i know her pretty well. She is someone who is frank, and let known her feelings to others.
The intonation and expression was something i never seen before. Serious, with a mixture of happiness and sadness. At that moment, i don't know why i felt like that, i wanted to go and hug her and say something like what drama always do. However, being a usual nincompoop (or maybe not. For what i did was all right and ideal), i just nodded my head, smiled and left.
I really miss all of them. Great bunch of friends. I like high5. I really do...people like them will always make my day.
p/s: Ahh shit, im feeling damn sad now. Damn emo. I wanna cry.
