Getting more and more sian everyday. Nothing to look forward to, nothing except to quickly end this 2years of shit.

Had been rather lonely for me nowadays. Just felt 'strange' inside me. The nostalgia of school, the stress of exams, friends that can go out with.

It's been work and colleagues. Friends, most are gone. As usual. Those attached, those busy, those not-free.

Yes, anyway, no one reads this blog anymore. And it doesn't matter anyway. A private blog in a public domain. Ironic. For me, school had started too. Hope i will get to know few friends also.

But ironically, another part of me asked me to stop making friends. It seems like i'm used to such life, going alone or maybe going out with friends on occasionally. Even i'm out with friends, i felt different. Extremely different. It's like my mind is in another place. Somewhere far. And i have no interest in sustaining a conversation. Or even initially a conversation.

I think i'm becoming an introvert. Like what i am initally.

So, i guess i would be like this for many a more months. And i don't know if leaving myself alone would be a good thing. But that's what my mind and body wants. So i will just let it be. Leave it to fate.


Azurite (heroic age)

A long time ago, i met you.
But i would have never thought that i would have frown such feelings.
Can it be that, i've fallen for you?
On the way back, i stay silent.
As i look into the stars in the night skies,
I took the long route on purpose.
Walking as i held your shoulder.
As long as we are together, we will be able to overcome such obstacles.
And as i look back at those feelings, i realise that i am in love with you.