New phase of life

National Service begins, will be working soon. And so welcome 2years of slacking in office.

What do you do when you got troubles yet no one to whine to. So you find a place surrounded by 4walls, and whine to the walls, then the echoes will bounce back to you and indirectly you are whining to yourself.........

It is the NS days that i can spend time thinking of stuffs i wanna think about. Had been introspecting for the last couple of days as i got really nothing better to do, but to lie down on bed and think...just think, reminisce, contemplate...

More often than not, i will focus on my problems -- what i perceived and forethought. I must say i'm quite sad over a couple of stuffs, and couldn't find out what went really wrong and what to do next. Abit helpless in a sense.

Slowly and slowly, progressively, whenever i thought of such things, i will feel so empty and hollow and strange. How i wish there is someone i could talk to. But everyone got their own problems; the chosen one i confided might make me worse by:
1) Relating my problems to their own problems, and whine with me
2) Saying their problems are far more devastating than mine
3) Not empathizing yet blaming me thoroughly

Never mind, this is a whining post...not intending anyone to care.

Music dreamer cafe

Been to mu chuan with jiaying, yvette, zoel, hailing before. I thought it was the perfect place for chinese pop music liao. Till today...

Yueat Tin jio-ed me to music dreamer cafe, it is about the same as mu chuan, but better in the decor, ambience, singers, service, etc. Got a very jiao singer, he laughed more than he sings. I admire him for his 'zi-high-ness'


Eh, why my post so boring liao...like describing like that. Okay, i tell you all one story.

Last time when i small, ( k la, not so small, during sec 2 that time), then got this thing call International Coastal Cleanup Singapore (ICCS), i went for the briefing in NUS and saw this wonderful overall logistic i/c. Her demeanour, stance, the way she presented the speech was so admirable. Say also paiseh, actually i never listen to the briefing also one, just stare at her long hair, brown eyes. ( that time small boy, never see such 'mei nu' before)

Okay, i never fall in love with her. Diaozzz...but i wanted to know her la, as a friend, you know. She is like so pro to me, at that point in time. So actually i got her contacts, then yar loh, we got chat in msn before, but it wasn't much, coz' it is just like a passive conversation most of the seldom times we chatted.

So is like, you want to ride a horse, but you need the horse to allow you to ride la. haha, jiao example, but i meant that both sides need to agree one loh.

Then, slowly i joined ICCS, as the main comm in sec3 and sec4, so got to know her abit more.

But it was only during my J1 yr, when i became a full-fledged chromosome (argh, i mean full fledged toddycats!) which means i joined officially into the organisation. As you all must have known, (duno also fake know) based on my prior knowledge on mangrove swamps and proficient enough to handle logistics, i was the co-organiser of ICCS mangrove sector.

Then very 'qiao', she was also assigned co-organiser of ICCS mangrove sector. So we both are working together. Actually still got one more guy la. But in this story, he not that impt. But nevertheless, he very nice guy. (like me!)

The cleanup went well. And we were again co-organisers again for this year. And yar, of course, it went well again la. (what to expect, got me mah! heh)

We knew each other better then, during the planning, recce-ing, and outings. I guess we were more of acquaintances in the early days, but now we quite friend liao. So yar loh.

And after knowing her much better, i realised she isnt that 'chio', and her long hair no more le. She cut to short hair, but her brown eyes still remained la. Then, she smile also very strange one, laugh like cartoon. It goes like 'heh hee heh'...

After knowing a person more, always doesn't fit into the first-met impressions one la. So yar loh, actually i very happy to know many people in toddycats! Fortunate enough to be part of the team, so many nice people around. Each with own stories to tell.

Maybe find one day, den i will tell another story about another individual. heh heh...like Mr Chen Kee or Mr Huaqin.

How i wish: so far i admire kewei, if i can know her personally and be friend, wouldn't that be wonderful? yeayea...haha...if the story above can come true, why not this right? haha..dream is the foundation to reality