Meet The People Session

Haphazard post. I know it isn't a good time to blog. Busy these few weeks, will be like this all the way to prelims. I'm laggin behind. I desperately need to buck up.

On a more positive note, today's MPS was quite fulfilling to me, for the fact that i handled around 3cases. Quite a privilege. The Mayor of Central Singapore know me liao. Quite dua liap. Got people bully me can go ask him for help, and bullies will get kick in the ass hard hard...wahahahas...

And yar, felt quite bad for not sending liewqi home today. I don't know why i will that way. But ermm, perhaps i sympathise for her having to rush all the way down to BISHAN from HWA CHONG (so far) after ending school at 6pm, then after MPS she would make her way back to home sweet home in PASIR RIS (so so far). Perhaps it's the admiration for her. And maybe maybe, coz' i knew her long before high5, and thus treated her better. (As if i cared for my co-organiser Seng Wei whom stayed at Eunos, okay la, he's a guy!)

And today is the first day of 7th month, when 'ehem ehem' come to earth to roam...

Yea, back to work...

Meteor shower

The art of saying No (Not meant for anyone)

Bloggish style. Introspection again. I tend to think, and reflect on how others treat me. Perhaps i'm just too sensitive, like what kelvin said, by being that way might have its benefits. Some people told me something that struck a chord in my heart.
"By not telling you, it's ultimately very unfair to you".
Yet, i did not feel anything about it. No unfairness. Nothing. Perhaps i'm numb.

One more incident was a few days ago, when i asked people to have a game with me, after mugging for a long time. The convo started something like this:

Me: hey, you all want play game not?
He: hahaha...
He: =P
Me: So want not?
He: hahaha...
*long pause*
Me: Okay, so do you want to play?
He: sorry ba, i need to sleep soon...paiseh leh..

I couldn't stand such behaviour, just a simple 'No' will do. And we move on! Not wasting my goddamn time asking again and again, finally getting a 'good-enough' answer. Perhaps i'm too straightforward, but i don't think so. Asking people to play a game is a trivial thing, no business negotiation needed, no capital, no finances involved. So, is saying a 'No' so difficult? As if i gonna kill him if he don't play with me.

Perhaps i'm too demanding, too pressing, too un-understanding...But am i? Like for instance, a simple thing like greetings, it's often both parties taking initiative. Not one party doing it only. It does perturbed me. And i don't know why. I'm not talking about unfriendly acquaintances, but close friends. Everyone knows after a long time of 'quietness' will lead to 'friendship deterioration'.

(I don't expect anyone to read this post be conscious thereafter and say 'hi' to me whenever i come online, it's for the mere fact, that the purpose of writing it out is for my own rantings and whinings)

However, no matter what, they are still friends to me. Little idiosyncrasies are nothing. =)

Kindness and thank you

Ceo can drive liao. I'm so jealous. Blame my stupid late birthday. Reminds me of my 'A's also.


Getting back, would you ever help a person to the extent that she / he doesn't really show any appreciation for your kindness? Yea, happened to me. I think i'm too kind.


Maybe i shouldn't help after all. It's isn't my business in the first place. I don't know. Facing something like this now....neber mind, i see what i can do

When the opinions differ

Went out with Yvonne yesterday. My good old primary school friend. She was one of the more boisterous, cheerful, active, tomboyish girl i knew. Guo ran is nu da 18bian. It's like a totally different person -- a strong girlish (duh) girl.

But well, time do change a person's character, attitude, etc. I must admit everyone do change. Experiences and the environment moulds us. Our maturity increases. Our outlook in life changes. It is, nevertheless, a good thing. Adn perhaps, a not so good thing after all.

After meeting with Yvonne, i realised she's a matured girl. Having her own mindset, and opinions about things. It was, ermm, been quite a while since i last met her, due to her hectic schedule of work, and mine too. So yar, we caught up about each other's life ytd.

It was quite shocking for me to notice her change. To me, i found the change too drastic, too different of what i knew of her a few years back. 'Change is the only constant in life', hur hur, yea, sometimes cliches are just true, unfortunately.

I say, i wasn't natural throughout the whole night. Opinions are, in a sense, no right or wrong. Our opinions differed, ranging from preferences of common stuffs, to intellectual thought. I don't know whether i'm putting it in a nice and tactful way. But yar, that's how i feel.

I can say, yar. "Opposites doesn't attract me". The huge difference made me uneasy. However, i believe a night out with her made me understand this: 'everyone is indeed different.'

And the differences varies...

Maybe it's about both parties giving in, and compromising...

i don't know...

My exams over. It doesn't end there. Homework to do. Sad life. One more term to no-more-uniform. But i feel upset about it. Uniform makes you young, makes you a teenager. Haizz...

Imbalance -- Plagiarised from Dear Kiao-Veen

life is about balance, a concept that is integral in the marginal decisions we make to resolve our everyday problems. to weigh one's options down to their last grams of benefits/cost to arrive at a decision that will yield the largest benefits to our logical consciousness. the worst of these imbalances i encounter is that between emotion and rationality. to detach oneself from the subjective judgments and emotions we feel about an issue, then to attempt to quantify and qualify the value of our feelings, and to pit these against our logical analysis of what to do and what should be done. it is a tiresome process, one that i have had o do much of in recent times. but of course, so do the people around me, and so do the countless multiudes of others around themselves.

i have often been forced to choose between the things i want to do, and the things that should be done. even right now, i live on borrowed time. i was supposed to leave for home to take something i had forgotten to pass to a friend, and here i am, writing because i feel like doing so. (: and on a larger scale of events, i didn't make an informed choice of the things i had to do today, thus my plans of going to a food & fun fair at nanyang had to be overridden by the module today! of course this conflict is the result of only my own negligence. oops. but to illustrate this conflict in a balance, i had to weigh down my own desire to crash the funfair and meet up with friends there, against the call of duty to attend something that people had painstakingly sacrificed time and resources to provide for me. in the end, it was a straight choice of attending this module today, because a higher echelon of my feelings told me that i was grateful for this chance to learn about the module, i felt the need to show that i care as much as they did to have arranged these modules for me. therein lies the balance of my emotions and rationality, and i was at peace with this decision to attend the module.

i KNOW i'm putting this in a very clumsy way, against ms. cheong's advice, but well i have just illustrated with great detail a small decision in my life. and for me, it is all these decisions between following my heart and mind that i struggle with daily. but i believe that for every problem, there comes a solution that marries both sides of the coin, and sometimes we just need to think a little deeper about things, or mabe just to take a step back and let go of certain notions/desires/things. and we can be at peace with each other. zennnnnnn. heh. sorry that this is kinda blog-style?

anyway ending off soon. i was pleasantly surprised throughout the course of this module because of the things ms cheong talked about. i could see why she is a successful communicator. i like the idea of believing what one writes for, and to be honest in one's expression of ideas. the idea of a fluent translation of our ideas into words is appealing, but somehow the technicals always hinder me. and i guess this module has shed some light at least to the small details of writing that make a written piece an effective expression of ideas. (:

http://hutdugaikarsui.blogspot.com/2006/06/summer-snow.html

Soccer today. Left eye tio zham, but my heart also pain. My glasses gone liao. But i managed to salvage it though. =)

Weisiong: knn
Bryant: eh, you okay not?
Weisiong: knn
Bryant: wahahas, you key siao one leh
Weisiong: *giggles*
Bryant: ......

Anyway, i managed to score two goals. For the ONLY MEN match. Opening goal and winning goal. 5-4, out team won. We played with zhabors too, they like very enthu leh, but most of them don't know how to kick ball. When palying with zhabor, then give face, nvr zham, just pass to them, let them scream and shout. (ermm, that isnt the case, they sporty but lousy) =P I aint gd either.

So yar, i quite tired also. Weak liao. haiz..