Okie...decied to update a new post...coz' i got something nice to write! Actually, i create new post when:
1) I got something to write..
2) When my comments become stagnant / when people fill up my last post comments...
3) There are people for me to suan...
4) I'm sad or pissed...
5) I got nothing better to do...

It's perhaps the 2nd and 3rd reason that made me write this post...

Two days before, when i was writing the script, Ms Hon told me to write it in such a way like how i wrote a post back in October 2003...
Well, she was touched by my entry at that time..
i read that particular past entry again, and was rather surprised by my ability to phrase my thoughts out so nicely that it indeed touched me...
But now, it wasn't much of such touching stories...
perhaps i was more expressive last time...
I don't know...

Never mind, back to my story...
Yesterday was a day when the sun rose from the west...
Two interesting things happened to me:
My good friend worked so hard everyday that he suddenly 'key siao' and called me at 1am...
He claimed he was already considerate, for only a jackass ( he called me a jackass!!) sleep so early at night during weekends...
I want to sleep early also tio suaned and scolded..
I told him stories with my braindead mind until 2 plus...
He's really a jackass...
Actually, the main point of my story is he suddenly turned into a workaholic, working into the late of nights, which previously he would tell me to pon school and don't do tutorial and life is good...
But now, it seemed so differnent...
I doubt he did that for money, coz' in the months of Nov and December, he did not even bother to work loh..(claim he finding jobs but can't find)
Perhaps it's coz' of the girl...the power of love! haha...

Then, another strange thingy was a known baddie turned into a angel to help me inject emotions into my script...
I told her help me edit until when she read again she must cry...
Then, she said she can't cry, coz' i'm the original writer..
Very mean right?
In the end, she e-mailed me back my script...
Then, i only see some changes in sentence structures and some highlighting of my sentences (People ask you add emotions lah...not play with colours lah)
Haiz...
In the end, i had to add myself with the help of my beautiful cousin...
I promised to drink kopi with her...
Back to my baddie-turned-angelic frenz, at least she offered her help lah..bu cuo le..so thanks wor..I not so boh sim, i thank you hoh...

Then, got a blackie come jiao with me...i never retaliate..coz' he very zek ak..last time he was bullied by me...but he very the guo fen..i dont know what to do...i don't wanna reply him, i cant give him a tactful reply...

I can't stand blackies who took the top of the organisation...they think they are very the great, but in fact they suck...their meetings started with tamil...luckily the secetary was chinese, or else he would write down the indian conversation...I'm getting racist...But of course, there are good indians around, but they are suppressed by the bad indians...Good indians prevails!

Okay, i handed in my script, to be vetted...and i got to rewrite coz' i have not brought out some other painful memories and penned it down...so i got to squeeze more brain juice and, hurt more of my soul and heart to recap the details of what happened....................

She said i was a skeptical person...a very skeptical person...just like what koh told me yesterday...perhaps it's true...perhaps i'm just too negative about things...but the world seemed to make me perceive things like that...and so i was lectured for quite some time about not being skeptical, i just nod my head like a dog in return...

OKay, don't talk about this...change topic...i went back school today to 'celebrate' scouts & guides day...it was a day in a year where both scouts and guides combined to play games together...sounds fun? Nah, most of the guides don't know what the hell is happening and appears to be stoning through the event...Scouts don't like stoning guides...hee =)

Luckily, there was this chou xiao zi, known as Hui Min and one more zhong du, named Joan, to pei me...then later came a blackie known as Durga (whatever she's called, i knew it ended with 'ga') and one more blackie oso, i don't know her name...
They started by playing wacko, to know each other names, so chou xiao zi and Zhong Du
and me stand at the side and see those bai chi play this lame games...

Light refreshment was lame, serving curry puffs and nuggets, i'm not interested in the food when i got to see Afiq's broken elbow...yea, i'm a sadist! But ta ma de, he don't trust me, he don't let me unwrap and examine it..So i was angry, i went over to another table and saw Chou Xiao Zi sleeping on the chair, so i vented anger by sitting on her legs...it was so fun! Then she sat up and start rubbing her legs, like very pain like that, plz loh, i not Clement loh! Then knee got blue black, i believe is not i make de right? haha...ru guo shi wo nong de, den suan ni suey loh...

Then, 4 balls came down from heaven, and we started playing with it...and that's the fun part...i hit Chou Xiao Zhi once on the second story staricase with my ball ball, and was slapped at the back...Then for don't know what nonsense reason, 4 jokers started throing balls at me...like very fun liddat..so bai chi...

Next, we sit at the back of the D&T block, where there are 3banyan trees and lots of palnm trees, watching them play tug-of-war...Yar, before that, while they first gathered on the quadrangle, finally heard how Chou Xiao Zi screamed at the guides...da kai yan jie wor..the voice was so hmm...'jiao?'...

Back to the place with banyan trees, the organisers were lousy, i would replace the game with hmm...husband and wife, tug-of-war is too violent, maybe someone's hand might be cut off...Then, they used my ICCS mangrove cleanup gloves! Damn them...was supposed to return to the coordinators and they claimed they lost, put my head at risk...now that they found, they indeed put it to 'good use'...

And that's about it, not much nice things to crap about le...yes, i reember...Before i end, i received lots of SLAPS from both of them, zhong du and chou xiao zi...once from stealing Zhong Du's wallet and phone, once for sitting on Chou Xiao Zhi leg..once for asking her help me take my ball on the floor...once for throwing ball at her, once again for accidentally throwing again at her, and perhaps some other time i forgot...

So girls are violent, and among the girls, the blacks are not as violent, they are more gentle, as shown as my above examples...Befriend more indian girls!

I'm back...i'm asked by the school to write something like an account of my condition the adversities i faced and how i overcome them...Initially, i thought it was something meaningful i could do to motivate some Beatty students who need to be pushed and learn to be self-motivated...

Then i realised that there was something strange about the whole thing...blame it on my sensitivity...and so i asked them what is the purpose of writing this article for the school...

Then i knew it was for the press, for the Straits Times...say, Straits Times loved such articles, students who did encounter setbacks but continue to strive in life.. But wtf! It wasn't a good thing as it seemed...

Okay, let me explain, the school is using me as a mean to get PUBLICITY, perhaps because the school knew no one have the capability to shine during the 'o's...All along i thought it is meant as a motivational script, but NO! It meant to be a personal recount script...

Let me put it more crudely, if i got good 'o'level result, then it will be published...if i got not-so-ideal (TOUCHWOOD) 'o' level result, then .............Life sucks, i would prefer her to tell me straight from the start that it was meant for the press...

Truthfully, i wasn't ready for tell the whole Singapore about my illness, well, most won't give a damn, but those friends around me will know that....Fuck! I don't feel good telling ppl about my conditions...I never wanted even to tell friends about my conditions...

I pondered...Talked to few people about it : Ms Hon, Koh, Shi Qi and Chee...It wasn't a nice thing to write but it also wasn't a nice thing to reject the damned school...dilemma...i'm rather sad...I don't know why i tell Shi Qi, but perhaps she was there at the right time when i was online...

From the time i got this crap illness, i never wanted to think about it again..but now bcoz' of the school, i had to bear through emotionally to recall my feelings and how i endure through the last 9months...why me?

Take it as a very last contribution to the school...the school will take it for granted, i don't even think they will provide a plague saying "your perseverance is worth admiration"...they will just be happy that their school got onto the newspaper...

pissed! PMS!

Okay, today is Angeline's birthday...Happy Birthday!! Kan wo na me hao, wish you happy birthday...

Okie, the time now is 9.50am...YES! I pon school again...i promised this would be the last time i pon school for the first three months...Well, school gonna end next week though...who cares! I want to be with my class for the last week...See, i'm a nice guy..aiz, i'm sick lah..

Had a terrible sore throat since Tuesday..see doctor on Wednesday, i don't want to cause another relapse...then doctor give me 3days MC, say better not go school...The doctor was indeed surprised at my vast knowledge of antibiotics...i regurgitate all those big names for him, he was so IMPRESSED, you know! that he decided to let me choose what antibiotic i want...so i chose Klacid (the one morning one night tablet, better than those bai chi antibiotic that require to take 3times a day)..Actually, he was also very impressed that i did not have other infections coz' im under the steroid...

But being me, a hardworking and dilligent pupil, i kei kiang, i went to school on Wednesaday...I drank about 4 litres in half a day...so fun! I went to toilet after every two lectures/tutorials...i mean periods...then Alex and Yvonne had to help me take my bag..But bobian, my throat is INFLAMMED..(The doctor used this word to me, it don't sound good)..

So today, other infections came along like influenza and cough...dammit..that's why i can't go school..I'm also in a dilemma whether to reduce my steroid dosage tomorrow..

Let me explain some analogy:

Amt. of steroid dosage is inversely proportional to immunity of T-Lymphocytes
DECREASE steroid = INCREASE immunity
INCREASE steroid = DECREASE immunity

Yea, so if i reduce, then i will be stronger!!! Then, those viruses and bateria will DIE...*muahahaha*...


Yar, one more thing to talk about..On Tuesday, i had my Speak EZ programme...it's just a boring GP lesson which people go infront to present their prepared speeches or suey suey got picked and go up and talk about a random topic...

I got chosen for table topic (random topic), my topic was "opinion on public campaign"..Then, they said you could go outside the classroom to prepare...So having sore throat, i go lim zhui...lim liao,they ask me go back give speech liao..So, without preparation, i started speaking...

With my fluent english and ability to reach out to the audience and my innate skill to utter bullshit...i talked trash for 3minutes..(It was supposed to be 2minutes, but i simply ignored the bell and continued talking...) The best part was I WON THE BEST SPEAKER!!

haha, i would like to thank Chee How for training my verbal speeches..He would call me everyday on his way home after he brought his girlfriend home (sweet? No, too much of a sacrifice, i rather stay at home and play gunbound)...So he, being a BORING guy, would only say "lanjiaowei", "haha", "ni neh", "ni nai nai/ ye ye", "knn", think that's all...so i had to tell him stories everyday..to keep him accompany..i'm a good guy, you see..

But when i sick, he never even wen hou me, still want me entertain him loh...ta ma de..very the idiotic..till now haven't qing wo chi da chan..coz' during valentine's, he spent all his cai chan on his zhabor..zhong se qing you...

Today is Valentine's Day...yea, i got no date...My school ended at 5.45...Coz' of two tests...Biology and Physics, which i did not really mug..i read through..My biolofy teacher Resma, told me it was easy...Knowing that she like me alot..i thought she would not bluff me..and dammit, she told me not to pay much attention to the small chapter on water, which came out one full page for the test...Dammit...

Then, it was physics, i hope something good will turn up...but i'm wrong..so sad, it was badly done too...but then, it's just first three months...Though there might be a progress card, i can just burn it away or throw it in the sea and let it float to London...

Few kind souls gave me pressies...Cookies, little notes, sweets, chocolates!, and one stalk of yellow Daisy...Daisy was nice at first, but i put it in my bag and it was no longer turgid (meaning died), when i went home, it couldn't be revived...orh..

My pal quarrelled with his 'girl-friend" (not officially)...and he came to me and shu ku, being a jiao person and after doing two lousy tests, i suaned him till the heaven and hell turned 180degrees...he's sad..of course, i laguhed..of course...haha...hope you are better eh...She NO MORE le, still got me! i can pei you find one more! heehee...

While one pal is sad, my another pal is happy...he called me when i was in the toilet..and when i say i want to pang sai, he refused to put down the phone...Then, he call me again when i was bathing, and again, he refused to put down the phone...he must be very happy for the whole day..he want to share his joy with me..I spent quite some time persuading him to put down the phone before hanging up in anger...he got to go out with his gf...then exchange pressies and stuffs...I can't let out the details..coz' firstly, i wasn't supposed to say so much...second, i wasn't even at the scene...thirdly, he's a boring guy...YES, I'M IN AUDITORIUM DOING MY TESTS!!

Thanks to Huimin who msg me...pei mi du guo wu liao de lectures and tutorials...she also have no date...heehee...so chaam...coz' she don't want date her EHEM EHEM *cough cough*...instead, she going out with her OG...mei you date de ren jiu shi zhe yang de lah...haha

Then, got one more girl call Emily...so boh sim one...never wish me Happy Valentine's...i must wish her, then she know how to reply...reply also reply when i was doing test..then my vibration very the powerful, all those people surrounding me turned and look...see lah..haha..card also never give me! Baddie...

What a valentine! I insulted 4 people in this boring post....heehee...chu qi

It's 9.35pm now...few more hours into the Rooster year...Been in mood swings these few days...or perhaps weeks...i think i need a break..a time when i could be alone, or with a nice friend, on a quiet and peaceful place...where i could sit down and think and reflect and ponder...

Perhaps i'm stressed...i'm thinking of fishing..

Went back to Beatty today to see my teachers...pay them a visit...least i expected HaoTong to go back!!! Of course, knowing i seldom get a chance to see this monkey next time, i went with him to j8 to have lunch and shopping for new year goodies...he's cute...he loves to jump...he's in SRJC...and when he's with me in j8, he got no FACE to wear his SRJC badge...haha...why ar? haha...mayb coz' i suaned him too much...He admit SRJC is a playground...He is so cool...his hair is very long, he look like a blangah from the back...
Mrs Goh scolded him for that...very fun..

And that Ba Bu Singh sucks...his attitude towards us was bad...i don't see that why we must be QUARANTINED in the canteen like a bunch of chickens...and due to SECURITY reasons, we were allowed to see teachers for only 10minutes! A wait from 0800 to 1015 for 10minutes AUTOGRAPHY session...The teachers AINT JAY CHOU...and 10minutes is enough to set up a bomb and blast the whole school...and it wil require 100 babusinghs to build it again...(joke)

tell the damn school, no one would want to visit beatty next time if this is the way they treat ex-students...Damn the admin...Damn the management...

But never mind, amidst all these craps, i got to see HaoTong, and enjoy his 'coolness'...haha

Talking about the Q & A session about MM Lee with the grads...i caught it on TV last night, 7.30...i knew it would be nice to see him speak..especially his reply for the person who used the word 'despot"...I mean imagine a guy use the word 'despot' on a person who contributed much for singapore success...it's like ermm...a blangadesh telling you that you are poor...

Okie, that guy got style..i admire him...he got the guts to use the word despot...he got the guts to tell MM LEe that his argument is based on the past, and that he used incidents and examples that favour his point...but hell, of course what...where got people contradict his own argument...Then at last he said, the argument is meaningless, for he is not seeking a philosophical answer and he could rebutt with examples that suit his side of the argument too...

He's so cool...more cool than Zhou Jie Lun..he wore a jumper! he think the PAP would not blacklist him...he think he can argue better than the experienced old man...Maybe he want to gain media attention...he want to be William Hung Jie Lun...

Then, there is one joker who asked the old man, i cant remember the exact question, but he said something about the next election...The old man laughed at him, the auditorium laughed at him..."what do you think i would say? The opposition would win?" Then, i looked at his face, haha...so fun..

A one hour show well spent...hearing the old man speak...

I'm back after a week...people out there, i'm back in school dammit! I living and kicking! Words spread fast...even Melissa know about my relapse...sources told me the almost whole class knew...Big mouth everywhere...haha...haiz, never mind...( don't comment and tell me that they care or what, i know, im no meanest being on earth not to know that...i just don't want type it out) I just don't want people to know...

I really don't want to talk about my condition...i'm practically sick of it...i'd no intention to explain to relatives during CNY..imagine people asking you whether your food is salty for your three meals everyday..."xian ma?" "Zai wai mian bu yao luan luan chi hoh" "xian de dong xi bu yao chi wor" "ai keor chui hoh" (dialect)...i mean give me a break...

Just like how Mr Lee put it during his Q & A session with the grads..."Good luck to you, move on with it!" "My wife got cancer, and i had to tell her to get on with it..." I mean you do not need to tell me it happened to me...it happened to me, and hell i know...

chinese new year is here soon...crackers and sweets and oranges and delicacies will soon be seen everywhere...yum yum..but sigh, i don't think i can get to eat much..it's not that i can't eat, but people will just refrain me from eating them...say too sweet, too salty, blah blah...

Well, actually i'm quite sick and tired about it...with people telling me what to do...hey, i'm recovered! Everything is perfectly normal...i don't need you to teach me how to live...for i won't die! get it?! i won't want to risk my own life...i got lots of things i have not done...But still, most people don't understand...

mood swing...