Okay...no more dilemma...i took up the challenge...
I had been thinking these few days, consulted a few great guys: chee how, jie yu, jennie hon, aaron who made me more confused in my decision. Mr Shum Chee How was the worst: he started off by laughing at me...
Okay..i got/tendered this national project cum event...it is in mid-oct, very very CLOSE to my 'o' level...actually i don't know why i took up this challenge, it's really.................haizzz...nvm..

Got back Physics and Chemistry paper today...I would be crossing my finger..and hope that they don't moderate...but it can't be...they are a bunch of sadist, they SURE moderate...nvm, the most i will land up with two A2...

My dearie physics teacher and form teacher told me that he would be nominating me for Eagles award...the reason being was that our batch very few capable (or you call them stupid freaks) guys who toiled their secondary life for both studies and external projects...i'm a freak, i know...
Mr Koh is nominating me for another award known as some 5'C' thingy...this time he made me write my own testi...not like Amos who helped me with my testimonial for the award...
So, two awards pending...
I got 2 awards this year le...NCO award and High 5 award...

Okie, enough of boasting...heh heh...Clement is lending me his Da Vinci Code...my hands are too itchy for that book...yeah!

The Wolf Moon, the Snow Moon, the Worm Moon, the Pink Moon, the Flower Moon, the Strawberry Moon, the Buck Moon, the Sturgeon Moon, the Harvest Moon, the Hunter's Moon, the Beaver Moon, and the Cold Moon......twelve.

They're really all the same Moon, of course, but long before the advent of modern calendars people named the full Moons of a year to keep track of time. These fanciful names have been handed down through the generations and they are still a part of modern Moon lore...

The Harvest Moon is no ordinary full moon; it behaves in a special way. Throughout the year the Moon rises, on average, about 50 minutes later each day. But near the autumnal equinox, which comes this year on Sept. 23rd, the day-to-day difference in the local time of moonrise is only 30 minutes. The Moon will rise around sunset tonight--and not long after sunset for the next few evenings....

That comes in handy for northern farmers who are working long days to harvest their crops before autumn. The extra dose of lighting afforded by the full Moon closest to the equinox is what gives the Harvest Moon its name. In the southern hemisphere, this week's full Moon behaves in exactly the opposite way: there will be an extra long time between moonrises from one evening to the next....

Did practically nothing constructive in school today...except spending the long boring hours reading the international bestseller Dan Brown's book, "Da Vinci Code"...guo ran shi bestseller...very intriguing...

Okay...bad news...i did badly for geog...it was my lowest mark ever...so dulan, i was really out of form man...then move on to chemistry practical...i barely pass...yes, my titration was wrong! Very very wrong indeed...the actual result was 35.6...and i got both 35.4 and 24.8 respectively...i sux...instead of choosing 35.4, i chose 24.8 and the nice number got me zero out of ten for titration...shrugs..blame it on myself...

Heard from my class jokers who were enthusiastic about their sciences marks...and i realised i will not get A1 for both physics and chemistry...and i know cow set such tough biology paper meant for us to die...so A1 for science is out of point...

Rather upset lah..of cuz wad, prelim leh...after receiving such results, i sank deeper into my dilemma...should i do it or should i not...??? Arghh...i would have to make a decision soon..

Bestest pal got 17 points...he will have to waste his 3months..*evil laughters*...i mean it's over, must resign to the fact, and work harder for 'o's...

Outing

Went out with my bestest pal, Aaron yesterday...We actually wanted to buy shoes in Queensway, as they are famous for their cheap shoes...We, suakus, took MRT all the way to Queenstown (Not via city hall but by Jurong East)...then aaron sid Queensway is located near to Outram as told by his friend and take 147...We dropped at Outram Park, followed his weird friend's instruction (reference point is the hospital, wtf??) and landed up in a bus-stop that was un-used...So we got so frustrated that we left Outram...

Then, we sat the train back four stops to commonwealth...this time the information came from MY helpful and kind friend, Dennis..He said the shopping centre is located strategically outside the MRT station...Bullshit...a piece of red soil covered the two sides of the MRT station...We asked the train station personnel, and finally got there...By the time we reached there, we spent more than $4 on travelling and 2hours of our time...see how suaku we are?

Next, we went through every shop in the shopping mall, revisiting some, and kena suaned by uncles who think they sell their shoe cheap cheap...a conversation with one of them:

Uncle:"This is a very special price, can't find elsewhere in singapore!"
Me:"Yea! you call such price special?"
Uncle:"You don't believe you visit other shops."
Me:"Yea! other shops price can't find elsewhere in Singapore and JB."

Uncle2:"Boy, we are making business okay. This price very cheap alreadi."
Me:(You so dulan with my friend, don't buy from you lah!) "Yea, then alright, happy selling your shoes!"


They made such claims and even in the name of GOD...i can't believe it man...queensway sux...shopkeepers sux...never visit the place again, even i got to get shoes at a higher price...So, in the end, i got no shoes..Aaron budget was under $70 bucks...most shoes are above 79.90...haha

Next, we were so crazy enough to say 'hello' to the western side of s'pore that we went all the way to boon lay to watch the "New Police Story"...

So actually, our day was wasted on travelling...heh heh...but it was fun...visiting the Western side of s'pore...it's always better to hang around the same area..life ain't boring, and today was our attempt to break our monotony of life--at the cost of wasting enormous bucks on travelling and wasting time...

Yea...i'm in a deep deep dilemma..i know the decision lies within myself..but i really need advice...i told my 'brother' last night who gave me the GO AHEAD...i told my pal Chee How..He din give me an answer...i'm confused...but who cares, it's me and my decision ultimately...but once i made my choice, there would be no turning back...

Yea...prelims are finally over...

Yesterday chem 1 was easy...but Additional Maths 2 was disastrous...Blame myself for concentrating only on mugging chemistry and not A maths...i don't hold A maths in regard...haha...blame myself *slap slap*

I spent last night attending a lame lame high 5 meeting with the elderly (i mean life inspiration awardees)..instead of a proper meeting, we went there to talk and watch some lame lame powerpoints...Blame it on Belinda, she told me the information and made 'rectum' and me blurr blurr go...winnie pang seh us...Met Gwen, Janet and Dilpreet and Li Juan who came late late...And thanks to Angeline who pei mi SMS, or else i will die there of boredom with quack...

Today physics practical and mcq...rather easy...my dear physics teacher forgotten to zap the last page with modifiction questions...and WOOHOO! that means the paper only consists of instructional questions...boring!He told us that there would be a curve for practical, but i realised there wasn't any curve...

I took out my curve ruler and started swinging around with it to attract attention...
Clement looked at me...
I point to graph paper and curve ruler...
He looked away...
Then turned back and gave me a 'jiao' smile...
I point finger, said "got curve not?"
He obviously deaf, twist his body and gave me his 'jiao' smile again...
He, situated strategically in the middle of the classroom, looked around to see people attempting to draw curve...
He realised there was no one except for me playing with it...
He called the trainee teacher on duty, with a 'jiao' hand signal...
He said "Mr Amos say got at least one curve, but like no curve leh?"
Trainee blurr blurr...said do what you can, draw straight lines lah...
Clement turned to look at me and gave me his 'jiao' smile again...
I called out to him, only to receive more 'jiao' smiles...

I risked so many times and got no answer...So based on my intelligence, i kei kiang plot a 1/y and 1/x curve to obtain a curve...den convert back to y against x curve to get back my straight line..then calculate the refractive index and replot my points...waste my time...The practical ended with jokers playing with the metre rule and giving 'jiao' smiles to each other...
If you ever have a chance on invilgilating a practical exam, and if you see smiles around, you should know cheating is going on...

Now that prelim is over...and i can relax a little...the past two week schedule had worn me out...in the sense that i even forgotten that today was my father's birthday...not until my brother shook me back to my world last night...and guess what? I even accompanied Mervy aka quack aka rectum to buy birthday gift for his father...and i totally forgotten about my father's birthday!
Never mind, i bought a mango cake for him...it looked nice, and yummy...

Orange fish


That's the colour of the orange sky...it looked like a fish to me...
This striking photo of a distant thunderstorm was captured near sunset on August 17, 2004 from Borrego Springs, California. The camera is facing to the southeast, and the looming thunderhead is therefore illuminated by the setting Sun. Note the anvil formation and the spreading cirrus clouds -- a sign of a mature thunderstorm.

Orangy Orange


I suddenly realised that it is September now! It wasn't until i got to see the familiar orangy cirrus clouds in the sky. Normally, such nice shades of sunrise happen from September to March. And i saw a nice sunrise today on my way to school, half awake. A nice sunrise certainly brightens my day! (Picture 'stolen' from Ham)

I spent the long whole afternoon and night yesterday mugging my beloved biology textbook. Even then, i couldn't finish everything on time. So i got up at 2.30am to continue mugging on the chpts that she did not cover for me. Damn...the papers were indeed very difficult as the cow (Queen of Biology aka bio teacher)claimed. She said yesterday to one of my friends "If you find the TYS hard, then you will find my paper extremely difficult."

Then, during biology mcq, Ms Loo, an interesting english teacher came over and pat on my shoulder. She said,

"How are you coping?"
"Dying......" (Making a joke)
"Don't worry so much about your other papers, concentrate and try your best..."

Maybe i looked fatigue during the paper...blame it on staying up late to mug...blame it on cow...i'm stressed...

Never mind about the bio...i got to realise that my titration for my chemistry practical was wrong! Yea...i knew something would happen to my titration...2 months ago and before, i was titration expert. Now, it's a different story...haha...and one more interesting thing, i need the help of my chemistry teacher to turn on the gas tap and light the bunsen burner for me. Hey, and i suddenly realised i broke a test tube and forgotten to pay...

(Plagiarised from someone complaining to the Straits Times)
M1 rules?

I have been an M1 subscriber for at least 5 years. I have stayed with M1 for the sure fact that I have recognized its services in the past and imagined that this giant service provider is about providing excellent service to their customers.

I signed for a second line for my father more than 2 years back and for the fact that I could not put a third line under my name, I simultaneously had my mother register for a hand phone line under her own name. I pay for both parent’s lines because I would like to have my aging parents have convenience of access to me and other members of or family at any point in time.

Last night I easily upgraded my father’s Nokia 3310 to the promotional 3210 at the Ngee Ann City M1 Shop; as the line was parked under my name. The new handset with features for the mandarin language will allow my Mandarin-speaking parents to learn its functions much quicker.

Today I called to ask for assistance to upgrade my mother’s handset without her having to travel to M1 shops. I was told flatly and unsympathetically by the customer service officer and subsequently by the Manager Ms. Sheila from the M1 shop Hotline (1800-8438383) that these are the rules and that my mother has to make her way to an M1 shop. At 65, my mother is not in the fittest of health and does not want to be subjected to milling crowds in shopping areas. As a daughter, I do not want to subject her to that either. I repeatedly asked if there was any way they can help; even asking whether I could have her sign an authorization letter or that they mail or courier me the forms so that I can have the paperwork be handled at home and then proceed to submit it at the M1 shops. But no, I was given the same flat answer without any consideration, except for asking me to send them a Doctor’s letter of verification that my mother is unfit for travel.

I am appalled by the mere brainlessness of the service! Neither of the service officers could explain why I could not arrange for an easier way for my mother; and still have it be safe, legal and formalized by their required standards. I wonder aloud why I pay M1 a mobile, pay M1 a monthly subscription and am subjecting myself to a 2-year contract with M1 (all of which are obviously business income for the provider) and yet am treated with little importance as a customer who could potentially stay with them a lifetime!

An excellent service provider might just have dispatched a customer service officer to us if they so need to see my mother in person; if they find that her legal signature does nothing for paper work. In which case, I would have written in total amusement a letter congratulating M1 for outstanding service.

But for now, I would certainly be grateful for a response from someone who truly understands the M1 service culture.

Found in S'pore



This picture is taken from one volunteer who participated in the ICCS 2004. She was involved in the cleanup of Chek Java mangrove. Can't remember when was the last time i saw this fruit, but i knew i was in Ubin...i can't even remember whether it was my teacher or one of the guides or the residents living there who showed me the fruit. It's rather big, around the size of four palms...*Beginning to miss nature trekking*



This picture is taken from the Hantu's blog, set up by divers who frequent hantu. Lots of marine diversity there...the picture shows a sea worm? I'm not sure, but i know it isn't a slug...


Mr Amos told me that i did well in Physics, and said few people who are sick for a long time able to cope as well as me...
Firstly, i hope he is not lying to me...(Mid-yr, he told me that i did well, and i realised that i almost failed the paper)...well, almost every major exam, he will tell me i did well...
Secondly, i believed this 'honoured' school i'm in only have ME who was absent for a LONG LONG time...that's shows their inefficiency of coping with such situation...

So far, the principal don't even give a damn...i mean he should at least give some 'fake concern' or whatsoever...never mind, i don't give a damn either...he sux

Since my Dearie physics teacher said i did well, i will continue studying hard for physics practical and mcq...(i gave up studying for Physics2 after 2hrs reading his notes + 2 months hiatus, and i did well????) Felt contradiction all of a sudden...i'm stressed...

Tomorrow would be Elementary Maths 2 and Chemistry 3...i'm afraid of titration, i'm afraid of acid spilling onto my shirt...i'm crazy...i'm stressed...help me...

And so a week is gone...one week of schooling...one week of term four...one week of prelims...one week of reunion...

Half of the papers were done and got over with...What could you expect from a person who seemed to get tired over the week and ended up sleeping instead of mugging...Furthermore the papers were meant to take one's life...so what could i say? There were teachers who came to me and exclaimed: "You are back! How are you?" Normally i replied with "I'm dying, please help!" *handling them my answer script*

It's a reunion with friends and classmates and schoolmates and teachers...after a two month hiatus, i could feel that "wo men mo shen le xu duo"...hmm...perhaps to some lah...close friends are still as close though...

My face now had been ruined by its inproportion and 'red dots'...never mind, i will wait for two more months and it will be another me again, after i cleared my drug dosage...

Life sux, i'm back to the monotony of work and rountine...everything is a rountine, even the days i spent staring at the wall at home...hmm...just like the sun rises and sets, the high-tides and low-tides, the night and the day...all these are also rountines but why they never seem bored to me???

Won't think so much these few days, will concentrate on my prelims...post more after prelims...

It was taken shortly after a storm system moved through the area and shows a lenticular cloud, which appears to be directly on top of a cumulus cloud. Both of these clouds were presumably caused by air moving upward near the mountains. This cloud configuration is unique because it shows two distinct stability layers. The cumulus (humilis) cloud is convective in origin (small vertical development), while the lenticular cloud is associated with stable or laminar flow over the mountains.



Looks very mystical huh...Guess what, this picture was taken in Kilimanjaro...

Dear diary, you make me sick

Keeping a diary is bad for your health, say UK psychologists. They found that regular diarists were more likely than non-diarists to suffer from headaches, sleeplessness, digestive problems and social awkwardness.

Their finding challenges assumptions that people find it easier to get over a traumatic event if they write about it.

“We expected diary keepers to have some benefit, or be the same, but they were the worst off,” says Elaine Duncan of the Glasgow Caledonian University. “In fact, you’re probably much better off if you don’t write anything at all,” she adds.

The study, carried out with David Sheffield of Staffordshire University, was presented on Wednesday at a meeting of the British Psychological Society in Edinburgh.

Cathartic process

The pair studied 94 regular diarists and compared their health with that of 41 non-diarists. The subjects, all students at Staffordshire University, answered questions about their diary-keeping habits, and filled in a standard health questionnaire.

“We decided to test the idea that writing is cathartic,” says Duncan. She claims that her study is the first to investigate subjects who write of their own free will. In most other studies, volunteers are actually asked to write about traumatic experiences in a systematic way.

The researchers asked the diarists recruited to say how often they made entries and for how long they had kept diaries. They were also asked if they had written about anything traumatic.

Statistically, the diarists scored much worse on health measures than the non-diarists. And worst affected of all were those who had written about trauma. “They were most susceptible to headaches and the like,” says Duncan.

Ruminative cycle

Although she does not have proof, Duncan speculates that diarists buck the usual trend because instead of a single, cathartic outpouring to offload trauma, diarists continually churn over their misfortunes and so never get over them. “It’s probably better not to get caught in a ruminative, repetitive cycle,” she says.

But she acknowledges that her experiment could not demonstrate which came first - the diary writing or the health problems.

In a forthcoming experiment, she hopes to explore this by asking volunteers new to diary writing to report exclusively positive or negative things, to see if the health of the two groups diverges.

I love the moon, i've been looking at the moon for the last two days. It did help to relieve some of my melancholy...Sigh...But never mind, enjoy this nice moon picture that i saw from a webbie...



Perhaps if you are not a space-savvy, you might not know this is a black hole...Know why the centre is so bright? In the centers of active galaxies, supermassive black holes at least thousands of times the mass of our Sun dominate...it's due to the accretion of matter by the black holes...Intriguing...isn't it?

I began to appreciate more of the night sky...Melancholy is proportional to appreciation of night sky...Stars...

The above photo showing a variegated sundog or parhelion over Lake Mendota, Wisconsin was captured on August 6, 2004. Sometimes, all that's needed is just a touch of color to catch one's eye. As the Sun was sinking on this summer evening, ice crystals in the approaching cirrus cloud deck produced this sundog -- 22 degrees to the right of the Sun. A corresponding "dog" to the left was visible as well but wasn't nearly so picturesque...

Will post more next time...

My bestest pal came my house yesterday again to disrupt my peace...this time he brought two books (particularly the subject i hated most) and started invading my PC to play his war games...We chatted quite abit this time, more usage of obscenities due to the absence of my brother..heheh...He said he shouldn't have bought the tigger for his gf, but something black (his gf likes black)...Hmm, maybe he should just paint the tigger black.

I sent e-mails to my teachers to make appointments with them during the one week holiday next week. I seriously need help for my studies...HEY, prelims would be a week from now, after the hols...And guess what? A few of them did not reply. Not really that i mind, i began to send SMS to them, and none responded again. I think i really need to depend on myself for the uncovered syllabus. Sad to say, this crap had been going on for a month....

I also wanted to lay my hands on some chemicals and apparatus to regain my confidence in practicals, then i realised that all the labs would be closed for prelims...How unlucky can i be???

Seriously and wholeheartedly, i don't blame the school nor the teachers. The school is busy, the teachers are very busy. Everyone is very busy!!! So i don't blame them...

Let's say how i will fare in prelims...i seriously don't know what the hell is going on in school. Imagine what i missed after a semester break from school...i study by myself, and learn by myself, ain't i'm great? I don't even know whether i'm on the right track....GREAT yea?

And seriously, i can't tell these craps to my parents. They already wanted to complain to my principal. Well, frankly i do regard him as a lousy and useless principal...sucks...I also can't tell friends due to some 'obvious reasons'...I tried talking to the wall, but it's only a good listener...

Well, there is so much things going on in my mind, and i've been thinking and thinking (if i go on at this rate, i will be a philosopher in no time)...It sucks...Arghh...My heart don't seem to be interested in anything...everything seemed so mundane, so dull, so boring, so unexciting...arghh...i missed the life i had last time...full of activities and fun and stress...

Today is my pal's girlfriend birthday. A week ago, he wanted to drag me with him to buy a toy for his gf, luckily i refused due to 'certain factor'. So in the end, he bought a Tigger soft toy for her at a cost of $18.95. And i spent 2 hours suaning him for misspending his money. (Can't believe i got so much time to spend) Imagine, at that price of the tigger, he could offer to treat me watch a movie or two. But he never did treat me once...

Another example...my another good pal forcefully brought me out of my house to accompany him to buy a gift for his gf. He, who belonged to a more serious case, bought a Hello Kitty for $39.95. And i spent the rest of the return journey suaning him. Imagine, at the price of the damn kitten, i can have lunch at a well-to-do restaurant. This good friend of mine, too, never offered me a treat once...

So, you see the power of love? No, my main point is that because of a girl, an innocent party is involved...

Ignore the previous post. It was meant for someone purposely...
And sorry for the two month hiatus...
Reasons:
1) In the month of July, i'm hospitalised and had no access to the internet.
2) In the month of August, i'm recovering at home, mugging like no one's business and neglecting my health.

So now in the month of September, i'm back...*Claps*

Won't talk about what happened to me during the last two months. Just to sum it up, it was really mentally challenging. Felt really awful, yet i managed to curb much within myself, just cant find a suitable person to whine to...I don't know why...However, it was through this period that i realised what are friends for...haha...and who your true friends are...it was through this period that i realised that when you are seriously ill, parents and relatives treat you as senile, repeating their instructions and word of advices millions times over my ears...it was through this period i realised teachers are busy workers...and many more...

Okay, i better say why i'm in hospital...i'm diagnosed with nephrotic syndrome...it normally happened in children when your own immune system guai lan go attack your own kidneys...however it is curable...And the good news is that i'm cured! (Wish i were dead right?!)

Okay, short post will end here...i realised that there is no one visiting my blog le...need to revive it....hmm...come back you people...

Hmm...a new month to come. And i will have to concentrate on my 'o' levels. So i sadly announce that my blog will be closed. =(

Well, thanks for the readers that have been reading and following my blog for exactly 1 year and 3days. (Disregard the hiatus from June to now) Okay, i'm no journalist nd most of my posts are bored. I opologise... =)

"Parting is inevitable. But the memories that stays are enough for eternity."

Jmes B. Bursmuth